Life Now

“We are all here to start a journey. And that journey is fucking hard, if you choose the right journey. Most of us, we decide to take a different journey in life, it is the journey of least resistance….. Find the truth of who you are, go back to where you turned away because you weren’t good at it or you didn’t think you were smart enough, and choose the real journey. If you finish the real journey, and you don’t fear or go places because they are easy, you will find a peaceful place.”

David Goggins, Navy Seal & Ultra Runner

I find comfort in knowing I am on my true journey. Most of 2016 and some of 2017 were spent attempting to find what was easier. My mind tried to convince my heart that maybe it shouldn’t be so hard, maybe things should be a little easier. I started to confuse flow with comfort and rest with laziness.

In the past 4 months I have been through more than I thought I could handle.  And while I am tired and googling Hawaii vacations this morning instead of working… I have a deep sense of knowing that I have been hiding from my potential. That I stepped out on this journey in 2013 and lost some of my commitment in November 2015. I let myself build narratives that Asheville was a mistake or failure and those narratives only served to knock me off track.

2018 will be about leaning into the journey; accepting that the journey is difficult and letting the struggles be the reminders that I am living a full and meaningful life.